Here I lay wishing this day to close and sleep to wash away the pain confusion and anger I feel.
My mind is screaming WHY?
But no answers come.
My eyes burn from tears, I feel like I have been crying razors.
My body is numb, I am in shock.
Two girls wanting one confused boy, let this end peacefully.
My mind is a myriad of questions.
What was she told to make her angry at me?
Why me and not someone else?
Why did she drop me and then decide to pick me up again?
I find no releif from this hurricane in my brain, not even in sleep.
Thoughts whirling and twirling in my numbed mind.
Voices speak to me.
"Find someone new."
"We all go through this sooner or later, for you it was sooner."
"Move on, it's a game, move on."
Please let me get through this without emotional scarring.
Please let me escape this teenage hell, this emotional prison.
Wake up from this confusing love/hate nightmare.